Today's post is more a request for aid than a rant or political statement. Recently, my two passions, my family and my country have collided. There is an old addage that opposites attract and this is certainly the case between me and my wife. I am one of the most political of creatures and she is not. The difference in us, is without a doubt, due to the fundamental difference in our experiences. She's neve left her hometown for any length of time in her 38 years and I've never really had a hometown in mine. I joined the Army at the tender age of 17 because even then I felt that I should give back to this nation. In the Army I was given a sense of my place in the world and in my nation. A warrior ethos was instilled in me that I retain after 20 years of being out of the military. She on the other hand, has worked 2 jobs in her adult life. Both here in Hometown, Ok.
For those that are familiar with some of my older and more introspective posts, it is clear that I am both a patriot and an evangelical christian. I believe in the Constitution and our Founding Fathers' collective wisdom in what they created. Even in the dissenting views that almost kept our great republic from even being formed. I am also a believer in the Bible and find more and more relief in the words in red. I also see in the bible, a total lack of any reference to this nation. Therefore, I have to concede the eventual destruction of this nation. Or in the very least, the hamstringing of it. These beliefs form the core of my very stubborn and conflicted view of America.
My wife on the other hand is new to her faith and tends to live in the here and now. By here I mean within the family unit, and by now I mean literally NOW. She doesn't try to plan for the future and it is left to me to try for increases in our fortunes. This is the end all, be all of her existance. Get up, go to work, eat, sleep. Rinse and repeat. In her mind, there are no other REAL priorities outside of the family. Honor and Duty ONLY apply to dealing with family matters.
This is the crux of my collision of obligations. She says that I have not been truly happy since I started getting politically involved. She says that she feels that I ignore my family for the political discourse and that my values are skewed. I believe she even said that I was obsessing about it. No arguments on my part that I AM trying to take care of my kids, by trying to ensure their futures fell on deaf ears. All of my efforts to explain my views on Service, Duty, and Honor as they reflect in my belief structure, may as well have been arguments against the wind blowing. They made that little of a dent.
So here I am, asking for you, my friends, to come to my aid and help me discover a way to reach and teach my wife, exactly who and what she married 6 years ago.
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